a moment ago..i think i just decided to dissapear from my love's life...i dont know.....i just felt that i cant be perfect to her...she always adore someone else...i know why..because im not perfect...that is the fact that i must know....i think....i will be stronger when i am alone...like before...im suck when handling my own emotion....i will be easily grasped into darkness...this two weeks i didnt brought my guitar along with me...i left it at home...my guitar is the source of my strength...it granted me confident in doing anything i desire...and whenever i feel sorrow,i will let the melody of her to calm me down...i have other alternative too... my love's sure taught me to become independent...by staying by her side,i feel stronger and my guitar does not needed...thats y i left it at home..but i guess i will be back home and fetch my 'baby'...i just want to sing my guitar the way she love it..but i guess im not able to do that right now...girl..i do not wish u to see my lack of my skill in it...i just want u to hear perfect melody..that can run down your tear...baby..when im gone...i wish u find someone who can replaced me..someone who is prince charming to u...this is the third time u crushed my heart...im not that perfect compared to ur ex...so now..i shall be gone...
baby...u never understood what i tried to said in song of you can-david archuleta...u didnt get it did u?=) its okay...bye
ak nak ckp dalam bi..sbb bi ak da bongok...so kalau terabur,perbetulkan and fuck off!
okay...i went back home during 24 august,way too early than other student..jyeah~
during the bus trip,it was fucking boring!i didnt brought my headphone cuz it was accidentally left when i was at home last time...i tried to sleep..but i cant...so i call my pokpok(chicken)..she didnt answer the phone...i know she was in class..but,=.= hanta la 1 2 text!then after i arrived at the terminal,i call my dad to pick me up...after i wait 4 one hour,he call me and asked,ko da sampai ke?i fake my voice to make it looked not dissapointed...after half an hour he arrived and im faking my smile during the journey...when we arrived home,i take my bag and take a nap...so~damn tired that evening...after i woke up(its already nightfall),i went to selayang mall to buy some guitar stuff...i bought guitar strap...
so after this i can play my guitar while running
this year eid seems not okay..there is lack of eid spirit within us..dunno if it is only me who felt this way..
my parents went to our village on the 3rd eid...my brother and i decided not to follow cuz it is already late..if i follow them,i will be bz on packing my things later on..
my eid is way too boring...i visited only few houses of my friends'..thats what i think of this eid